*I got to keep on moving....*

Hello Nobody...

Im not sure why i blog, pretty sure no one reads these but i like to vent so internet sucks to be you cos you have to "Hear" my venting alllll the darn time :P

Had a full on weekend, Party friday night. Was interesting... Few things happened! Was great to catch up with some great mates that i havent seen for ages since before the holiday etc.

Had a good D&M with Brenno, He is such a champion we tend to have all the "serious saving the world" conversations. If only it was easy to save the world...

Got to see the Beautiful katy and her Hubby Joel who i havent seen since their wedding... Didnt realise it had been sooo long like 10 months :( feel terrible about that i am really going to try have more 1 on 1 time with my friends and catch up more oftern :)

Seen Princess D (Dahlia) on Friday night also :) That was really good :) love seeing my girls :) We had a chat before she had to head off to Youth group so that was nice.

Helped mum out heaps on Saturday My brother ran for the hills when mum said there was gardening to be done so i was soooo appreciative when my boy and Paul up the road came down to help out :)

Did the Rebel sport City to surf yesterday, was really good acturally. The only down side was the public transport after the event. It took us longer to get on a bus back to the starting line than what it did to run the 12 km run.

All 4 of us (Noza, Paul, Sammy and I ) ended up with sun stroke from waiting so long. I finished the race in about 1 hour and 40 mins which is FABULOUS for me.  i mean a few years ago it took me an hour to run/walk 5 km and i did the 12km run.

Sammy really motivated me and at the beginning i pushed her alot and at the end she pushed me :) Was awesome :) I had a few mates walk the 12 km some got around 2 hrs 15 mins to 2 hrs 30 mins so Sammy and I got a good hour saved by our running when we could ;)

And it sets a goal for next years race cant wait to get fitter and do it :)

Im pretty impressed with how well were doing. Especially sammy she is amazing and has come soooo far. Wish i was seeing the results she is but i am still losing weight so not complaining. I have lost a total of 30 kg all up since i started last year. thats Pretty impressive. Pretty pathetic that i had 30 kg to lose in the first place but EH what can you do!

Have Zumba tonight will be interesting to see how i pull up tomorrow as last week was:
Mon: 1 hr Zumba
Tue: 2 hr gym session running, walking and cross trainer.
Wed: 6.5 km walk and jogging in intivals
Thu: 1 hr Zumba.
Sat: shopping wood and gardeneing which takes abit out of you.
Sun: 12 Km run
Mon: 1 hr Zumba.

HAHA Nazi's we are. But it feels awesome to be getting fitter :)
Neways that my little random Vent :)

xoxox

* Red Carpet Premier of Eclipse - Rome 2010 *

Rome 2010 - Stumbeled across the Eclipse Red Carpet....

Jane , Jax and I getting VERY excited....

Me sending the Twilight Crew a message from our mates at home in Australia...

Jax's is Team Jacob... I am team Jasper and Alice...

I was in prime position to get the snaps :P Right at the front on the barrier!

MAN you should have heard the girls scream...

Taylor Lautner Just as cute in real life hehe...

And there is the world winning Grin :) Good times.

Kristen looked lovely :)

She was so sweet trying to calm people down

SO CLOSE!

Stunning :)

* BEST FLIGHT DELAY...EVER*

*Life, O LIFE, O Life*

Guess who's back? Ok so to say i FAIL at updating is a rather accurate statement. My bad. Honestly oneday i will find all this hidden time and get on top of all the things i do, blogs i blog at, tweet at, update, yadda yadda.

Another update, Here goes. I was re- reading my blog and there are a few things i perviously blogged about that deserve an updated note on :P

1. I wrote about the legend that is Kobe Bryant, And i said something along the lines of i can hear the chants already "KOBE for MVP" well he got it BOOYEAH :P I knew he would he is magic!
2. I wrote about lakers to get the Championship again :) Can you imagine me. Im in Rome, Waiting for the game to download so i can watch it, its been aired for a day around the world, im avoiding the news, papers, tv, internet. We put the game on and BAM LAKERS WIN!!!! Jaz does cartwheels around the Rome apartment!
3. I wrote about the love heard hand gesture commonly done by Taylor Swift and Justin Bieber and you know it I so did them all round Europe. My Fav one is of me and my Bird at Madam Tussards in a little black cab ride, we both did it :) Makes me smile sooooo Much!
4. I didnt make Jane or Dave listen to JB while they were sleeping. Turns out they read my blog DARN IT!!!! FOILD AGAIN!
5. My RIDICULOUSLY cute Godson is doing well. He has gotten soooo big and squishy and fits into his West Coast Eagles clothes :P I even brought him a lakers outfit when i was in Venice... SO we have matching Godmother and Godson outfits :P he looks cuter than i do but thats ok :)
6. Ive been a reading machine this year. I have already read 24 books... Still going i think that was my total for last year.
7. Mum... well she still isnt good. I have no idea what to do or what is wrong. They think she had a bleed to the brain but not sure. She was sick last weekend form sat through to wednesday not cool. When we took her into the hospital she stopped breathing. MOST SCARY MOMENT OF MY LIFE! thats my mum, my idol, my... yeah not cool.
8. Still going to the gym, working away with Sammy. Lost another 15 kg. SLOWLY getting down. I fit back into my clothes from 7 years ago. My fav dresses and jeans and jackets etc. still going hard want to get down but im really enjoying it hey :)
9. Holiday was epic did so much highlights were: Got engaged, seen my fav place iv dreamed about my whole life = Trevi fountain, met rupert Grint aka Ronald weasley, seen Taylor Lautner and Kristen Stewart at the red carpet premier in ROME, seen the pope, seen amazing monuments colosseum, vatican, louvre, eiffel tower, Trevi fountain, David Michaelangalo stautes, riots, LOTS OF PDA etc. IT WAS EPIC!!!!

Well i best run so much to do and so little time to do it all in.
Much love
xxxxx

* U Smile.... I Smile*

LAST WORKING DAY FOR 6 WEEKS!
OMFGOSH..

ITS HERE EUROTOURO something we have been planning for like a year and a half...

in like 72 hours or somethiing silly

HAHA

EXCITED...

SO EXCITED!

Party time :)

SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

*PUT YOUR HANDS... ON YOUR HIPS...*

EUROPE!!!!
THIS WEEK!!!
OMFGOSH!!!

This is the last Monday i will be working for 6 weeks :P
PARTY TIME!!!

LALALA
For some reason i have the time warp stuck in my head :P
"Its just a jump to the left" lalala

HEHE sunday i cant wait to see you :)

*I have no words....*

This just breaks my heart....

:(

AN impoverished father has tied his eight-year-old boy to a post and tried to auction him off to the highest bidder in China.

Yong Tsui attempted to entice passers-by into making an offer with assurances that his son, Fai, was a hard worker, The Daily Mail reports.

However, the auction came to a violent end after onlookers heard bidders asking how little they would have to feed the boy.

Several people attacked Mr Yong, with one putting him in a headlock until police arrived.

Mr Yong told officers in Wuhan, central China, that his wife had died three years ago and that he could no longer afford to take care of the boy.

"He has no job, no home and no money. He says he wasn't interested in the money, just finding a home for the boy," said police, who have put boy into care.

Mr Yong was reportedly inspired to auction his boy after reading about a rickshaw driver who chained his two-year-old son to a lamppost while he went out to work because he couldn't afford childcare.

Child abduction and child slavery is rife in China.

Last week police in Wuhan freed two naked girls who had been locked in a basement for almost a year.

They were rescued after a repairman found a note they had managed to smuggle out in a broken television.

http://www.perthnow.com.au/news/boy-8-chained-up-by-father-and-sold-on-the-street/story-e6frg12c-1225871869526

*Cute Animal Pics That Make Me Happy*

*Ridiculously Cute "Fever" Things*

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKEQwvaYI_k

^3 Year old girl, Meets Justin... When she dives off the chair... RIDICULOUSLY CUTE!!!

http://www.justinbieberzone.com/2010/05/2-year-old-girl-ella-sings-baby/

^2 year old girl, singing to Bieber... Dont think i could hold my head up on my own at 2... But as the heading states... RIDICULOUSLY CUTE!!!

http://www.justinbieberzone.com/2010/05/belieber-of-the-day-1-year-old-bieber-fan-5262010/

^1 year old girl, Has already gotten the Fever... Look at her go... RIDICULOUSLY CUTE!!!

* So heres to you Mr Wirrpanda *

The AFL's indigenous round could have few better role models than Eagles champion David Wirrpanda. As West Coast pays tribute to one of its favourite sons Billy Rule meets a man who still has a long way to go on his journey.

In footy you have a choice, you play the ball or the man.
On a balmy Saturday night in April 1999 with the static buzz of 30,000 fans in his eardrums, David Wirrpanda plays the ball. He can see it in front of him and the 19-year-old instinctively sweeps out of the back pocket and reaches for the Sherrin in preparation for his next charge up Subiaco Oval.
Brisbane captain Michael Voss also sees the ball. But no matter how quickly those glistening, granite shoulders drive him forward he soon realises it will be impossible to win the race to the footy. So, when you can't get the ball, you stop the man with the ball. And that's what he does.
CRASH ... then silence. Nothing.

Wirrpanda's brain feels loose. He smells dry grass. There's the salty taste of saliva, sweat and warm blood in his mouth. Fragments of glass wobble in his gums. No, not glass, teeth. He feels them on his tongue and dribbles, then spits six of them on to the ground ... right next to the ball. The ball!
Suddenly, like the switch of a radio dial, the sound comes back: "Go Wirra. C'mon Wirra. Get it Wirra. Get up! Get up!''

He grabs the footy, glances around to judge his bearings and sees a boundary line. Not knowing any better he scrambles along that white marker and kicks downfield, leaving six of his finest fangs on Subiaco Oval. A trainer will later find five of the teeth and keep their nerves alive in a jar of salty Vegemite. West Coast win the match 11.17 (83) to 11.7 (73) and Wirrpanda picks up a Brownlow Medal vote.
Spin the highlight reel 10 years forward. Roughly 150m from that brutal Voss shirt front Wirrpanda can't fulfil his duties. He's in the offices of the old Subiaco Footy Club where the David Wirrpanda Foundation is based.
A nine-year-old Aboriginal girl suffering from mental and sexual abuse is being counselled by foundation staff. Wirrpanda turns away. He can cop some broken teeth but not a broken heart.
"Nothing,'' he says defiantly. "Nothing compares to what some of these kids go through. You think copping a knock in a footy match is hard. It's a walk in the park compared to what I see in here sometimes.''
Say the name David Wirrpanda.
For years he let people spell it Wirr-i-punda to get the pronunciation right, but in 2006 he changed it back out of respect to his father and his bloodlines.
Wirrpanda's father, you see, is a Djapu man who still lives traditionally among the Yolnguin (Arnhem Land) people. But he's not just any Djapu man. David's father is king and David _ being his eldest son _ has royal blood flowing through his veins.
Today at Subiaco Oval Wirrpanda will be treated to another kind of royalty _ footballing royalty. After 227 games, a premiership flag, a grand final, All-Australian selection and being responsible for countless practical jokes on his teammates, Wirrpanda will be officially farewelled from the club that has been his life for 14 years.
Appropriately, today's match against St Kilda is part of the AFL's indigenous round. Each year two games _ last night's "Dreamtime at the 'G'' clash and today's West Coast fixture _ are played in acknowledgment of Aboriginal footballers.
Awareness of the indigenous contribution to Australia's national game has become a predominant part of the code. Of the 800 footballers playing this season, 84, or 11 per cent, are indigenous. That's a badge the AFL wears with pride considering Aborigines make up just 2 per cent of the population.
But it has only been in the past 30 years that a conscious effort to appreciate indigenous footballers was made. Before 1980 only 23 Aborigines had strapped on the boots at the top level. Two of the greats from those darker days were West Australians.
The legendary Graham "Polly'' Farmer, who played for Geelong from 1962-67 and was named in the AFL Team of the Century, and Carlton's Syd Jackson (136 games between 1969-76).

There were others, too, but their stories embarrass rather than inspire _ one of them being Sir Douglas Nicholls, a distant relative of Wirrpanda. Nicholls was recruited by Carlton in 1926, but didn't play after he overheard teammates saying he smelt and trainers wouldn't rub him because he was black.
The wake-up call for the AFL came in 1993 when another West Aussie, Nicky Winmar, raised his St Kilda jumper to a racist crowd and pointed to his chest, proclaiming: "I'm proud to be black.'' In 1995 Essendon's Michael Long also made a stand and soon after the racial vilification code was created.
Those days of activism appear to have worked. In his 15 years at West Coast Wirrpanda says he was never racially abused. "Nup, never,'' he says. "In fact, if someone was being a bit of a smart arse they actually got pulled up by everyone else in the crowd. The awareness of Aboriginal culture has come a long way in the last 10 years. But there is still a long way to go _ let me tell you.''
And so he does. Wirrpanda can play football but he can also tell a story. Over the next day or so he tells me a few.
He tells me a story about himself, a boy born in Carlton, Victoria, on August 3, 1979, who sees more than he should.
As an innocent nine-year-old he watches from the sideline as Fletcher, his older brother on his mother's side, plays footy. Something doesn't seem right. Another player starts hitting Fletcher. Then another player hits him, and another, and another, and another. Soon the whole team has set upon Fletcher who quickly realises he has to get out of there. So he runs to the nearest police station and climbs on the roof, thinking he's going to be safe.
Unfortunately, the local copper just happens to be the ruckman of the team beating him up so Fletcher hops down and the chase starts again.
Wirrpanda finishes the tale with a grin in a "one-day-we'll-laugh-about-this'' manner, but he then shakes his head with despair.
"Mate, every day I would see it,'' he said. "Walking the streets people would smash us. Grown men would give it to my mum and my grandmother as us kids were walking along next to them.''
What about at school?
"Of course,'' he says. "But I knew what the deal was. Getting picked on by little kids was nothing compared to what my mum and my grandma went through. Me getting abused was nothing ... only words. We all knew what to expect. Everything was open. There were no cards on the chest because there was no point trying to keep anything secret. Mum would tell us, 'Well, you've been born black and you're gonna die black. It's who you are and be proud of who you are'.''
Advice from his mother, Margaret Briggs Wirrpanda, and grandmother, Geraldine Briggs OA (Order of Australia), is something that has moulded Wirrpanda into the man he is today. The two women were passionate campaigners for Aboriginal rights and would drag David and his siblings to political meetings throughout Victoria and New South Wales. The awareness of what his mother and grandmother were doing resonated with David who showed maturity beyond his years.
Trevor Nisbett, who was football manager when West Coast recruited Wirrpanda in 1996, saw that steel-laced spine from day one.
"I think he had this inner vision,'' Nisbett said. "It's very strange to sit next to a 16-year-old kid who can actually tell you he's going to make a difference with his community.
"Football was always going to be the opportunity to give him a profile so that he could do what he does now (with the DWF).''
And so the foundation was established with just two people sitting in the office _ David and chief executive Lisa Cunningham who Nisbett recruited from the AFL's SportsReady program. Five years later there are 13 full-time staff, eight casual workers and scores of volunteers as the foundation attempts to juggle the flood of requests that wash over them.
The DWF core objectives are to keep indigenous students in school, promote strong role models and emphasise healthy, positive life choices.
Apart from being a role model Wirrpanda is also the face of the organisation and receives dozens of requests to speak at, or take part in, events supporting the DWF.
Last Saturday night at the Park Hyatt was another date in a busy diary. Having been in Melbourne for a 5am to 1pm practice session for Dancing with the Stars, Wirrpanda flew into Perth at 8pm and went straight to the Hyatt.
At 10pm I watch as he gives an inspiring 45-minute speech. Charming the ladies with politeness, befriending the blokes with his humour and galvanising support for his cause with addictive anecdotes.
When we meet on Monday and laugh about some of his Saturday night stories he said: "I'll tell you another one.

"Two years ago I was playing my 200th game against Collingwood at Subiaco. It was the indigenous round and I wanted Dad to come down to watch. As I said, my father lives a very traditional life _ and he's only ever come to a handful of games _ but this was really important to me. Anyway, to get here from Arnhem Land he had to catch three flights which took about 10 hours and he finally arrived in Perth at 1am.
"He walks outside and says to the taxi driver, `Take me to my son's place'. The cabbie goes, 'Eh, what are you talking about?', and Dad says, 'My son, David Wirrpanda'.
"So the cabbie takes him to Subiaco Oval and Dad's there knocking on the door waiting for someone to answer. Finally he calls my sister in Melbourne where it's 3.30am and she rings me and says, `What are you doing to your father? He's standing out the front of Subiaco Oval!'.
"I picked him up but, I tell you what, lucky it wasn't game day because I wouldn't have answered the phone and he'd still be there banging away.''
As Wirrpanda tours the country telling stories and charming the fans, one of the girls in the trenches back at the foundation is his model fiance, Shannon McGuire.
They met 10 years ago when Wirrpanda shared a house with the Matera brothers in Wembley. Shannon's auntie lived next door so whenever Shannon visited she'd end up seeing Wirrpanda because her younger sister kept kicking a footy into the back yard to get the West Coast star's attention.
"I was only 14 or 15,'' Shannon recalls with a smile. ``The next time we caught up was when I moved to Sydney for Australia's Next Top Model. David saw me on TV and rang out of the blue. He'd just started the foundation and was seeing if I was interested. I was but being in Sydney made it hard to commit.
"When I moved back to Perth we caught up for coffee a couple of times. One thing led to another and now we've very happy.''
Apart from being Wirrpanda's fiance, Shannon, a 2008 Miss Universe Australia finalist, has played an integral role at the foundation by establishing the Dare to Dream program for indigenous girls.
"It's specifically for the girls because, while there are lots of great indigenous programs in schools, I think a lot of them are slanted towards boys through sport and other more physical activities,'' she says. "The girls tend to lose interest and miss out. To stop that we made a program targeting girls' passions which also teaches them the hard stuff they have to learn.''

Shannon confirms some days in the office are very tough.
"The stories are heart-breaking,'' she says. "I couldn't imagine living in the world that some of them come from. I was very lucky to have such a good family around me. But while some of these girls have to live in that 'other' world I think we empower them a little bit and give them the chance to make more positive choices as they grow up.''
In August last year Wirrpanda and Shannon had a son, Marley. When I meet the Wirrpanda family in a Subiaco park both mum and dad smother their son with kisses and hugs. They caress him, clean him, whisper to him and hold him up high _ as if he was king. Which is ironic, because one day he will be.
The Djapu tribe, where Wirrpanda's father lives in Arnhem Land, has traditions. One of them is that the king passes on his crown to the grandson of his eldest son. In this case, Marley.
When I ask David about the bloodline he answers with great depth and reveals that one day he, too, will return to Arnhem Land.
"I know my tribal responsibilities,'' he says. "Dad and I talk about it.
"There was one time when he visited and said, 'Do you understand your bloodlines?'. I do but I asked him, '

"Is it something that can be changed?', and he said, 'No, what goes through your veins you have no right to change, this isn't your call. It's the only thing in your life that you're not responsible for. You can't be the boss of that decision'.
"With Marley, basically, our kinship system means that everything skips a generation so Dad's title of king goes to the first-born grandson which is Marley. He's only eight months old so he doesn't know it yet, but the responsibility on his shoulders is far greater than mine. All that land up in Arnhem Land will be his. It's phenomenal.''
Shannon acknowledges the tribal loyalty of the Wirrpandas.

"The culture up there is really strong and the people are still very traditional,'' she says. "I understand the responsibilities and it's really important that, in order to keep the culture alive for generations to come, Marley has to be a part of it. But for a little man he's got a lot on his plate. He's got responsibilities to his family here, responsibilities in Arnhem Land and also to David's family in Victoria.
"But whatever happens we will do our best to teach him and provide him with whatever we can to help make him the best person he can be.''
Wirrpanda will also return to Arnhem Land one day.

"I do have to go back up there,'' he says. "I don't feel that I have to go _ I want to go. I have to attend to my cultural obligations because of the status of my dad and our family.''
Nisbett confirms that the call of the land almost took Wirrpanda away from the Eagles a few times.
"He's a very different beast, David,'' Nisbett says. "A remarkable young man. He was torn several times about having to head back to Arnhem Land.
"A couple of times throughout his career I had to sit him down and convince him that it wasn't the right thing to do.

If he wanted to fulfil his dream of assisting his people he had to complete the journey of his footy career so that he could be someone who is so outstanding that everywhere he went for the rest of his life people knew who he was.''
And people do know who he is. Over the period we're together the phone is constantly ringing, people introduce themselves, others congratulate him. Then there's the upcoming Dancing with the Stars, his corporate speaking commitments, a game with East Perth when time permits and a possible career in politics.
But the backbone of it all is his work with the foundation. His belief in children being entitled to have opportunity, innocence and love.

He tells me one more story about a boy and how love made a difference.

"Last year I went back to my old school in Healesville in Victoria to do a talk,'' he says. "While speaking to the kids I noticed an older lady up the back _ it was Mrs Liston, my Grade 2 teacher.

"After my chat she came up to me and said, 'David, do you remember in class I would sit on a stool and all the other children would sit in front of me, but you always sat next to me and while I read you would play with my shoe, gently stroke my ankle and hold on to my leg. I always wondered, why did you do that?'
"And I said to her, 'Because, Mrs Liston, I just wanted to feel love and you let me have it'.
"Anyway she broke down and cried and we both had a really big hug.''

We finish our coffees in a Subiaco cafe and with his stories complete Wirrpanda walks back to be with Shannon and Marley. Soon he holds his son close to his face, cheek-to-cheek, kissing him and whispering words that no one else can hear.

Two men together. One a giant and one with gigantic expectations. The father bred to be a leader and the son born to be king.

* I dont want to let you know, That there might be something real between us two... Who knew *

OMFG!!!

9 More working days!

13 More days!

12 More Sleeps!

Only 3 Free days where i have nothing on!

O.....M....G!

*Im about to relax, so baby pour me some Jack Daniels....*

Eminem...

So im really glad he released the "Refill" version of his new cd... While i dont mind "Replase", i would have to say it wasnt as... Urmmm as Eminem syle as his old music...

So when he released the "Refill" version i was happy because a few songs on the album are more old so Eminem.

I seem to get a lot of crap listening to Eminem, I guess i dont fit the sterio type. I think the thing people are most suprised by when they meet me is the fact that i am such an eclectic person when it comes to music, vidios etc...

While i really enjoy innocents and can be happy chillen out listening to HSM, Hairspray, JB, I can also flip over to Rap, R&B, Eminem, Tupac etc... I think in many ways Rap is more passionate than singing.

That might just be me, but i think when you go through alot of crap growing up, alot of the time its just something ya dont speak about... I guess Rap gets it out there with a cover of "anger or Not caring" but if you walked in those shoes, You know the other side, That you do care, and it does follow you...

Neways, i dont fit the "sterotype" im far from street thug, or ghetto or anyother steriotype  you think i should fill to listen to rap... I dont do drugs, I dont agree with rape or anything like that... I think people take lyrics a little to seriously...

Neways... That is another random update from me... My 2 cents, not that my opinions matter much :P I still dont care...
XOXOX

" Hello, allow me introduce myself... My name is shady.... So nice to meet you... Its been a long time... im sorry ive been away so long... i never ment to leave you"....

*I dont want to be anything, other than what i've been trying to be lately*

ONE TREE HILL NO SPOILERS...

Season 7 has ended... And might i just say that im really really amazingly happy that this show has taken on SOOOOOO many challanges and succeded everytime...

I think it was the first show to successfully jump forward years in the timeline but still been the fans hooked in and loving it...

I wont say anything about the season 7 final episode...
Althought i soooooooooooo want to....

Im SOOOOOO glad we have been picked up for at least 12 eps for season 8! i think they are going to be VERY VERY important....

IF you havent watched it yet, Do it now... Learn from my mistake, DONT watch it late at night when other people are alseep OR you MAY wake them up.......

O>M>G Mark you amazing man, you NEVER fail to amaze me!!!

XOXO

*Everybodys laughing in my mind.....*

GAH!!!!....

SO ill admit it i am somewhat of a twitter-holic... May spend a rather large amount of time of there tweeting all kinds of useless crap but i need my fix.

So for some reason i cant tweet over the last few days... when i log in, it comes up all messed up, half transparent, and the dialoge is all clear so i have to highlight everything to read... .

Worst part... Is i cant acturally tweet. O believe me i have tried... i have tweeted several tests... and they are either coming up but not showing on my screen or when i hit the tweet button it just sits there laughing in my face saying "SUCKER"...

I miss twitter, and my celeb fix... Yeah yeah i know they will never read my comments but sssssh makes me feel better and takes up all those boring hours when i am stuck doing nothing... GAH how will i make it through another day without twitter????
SO not cool!

*GRUMBLE*

*Your my special little lady... The one that makes me crazy*

OK Had to be blogged!!!

Seen Perez Hilton post about these new shirts, and i may have laughed so hard that coffee came out my nose... *AHEM, I mean what?*

Come on they are brilliant, cos lets face it MOST people think his name is beaver, well i did when i first heard of him!

And his last name Bieber i think is German for Beaver? I think it was German? Cant quite remember but i seen an intiview about it and he said that yeah it means Beaver.

So all in all i think it is pretty brilliant, and made me giggle like a school girl...

NEWAYS... The hair, the Heart hand symbol... WHICH ill admit im kinda annoyed at cos lets face it NO ONE does it better than the brilliant T Swizzel... 

OK i might be a little bias cos i mean i love Taylor she is massivly uber sweet and i seriously would just love to meet her and bake cookies, dancing in pajams and other wenching activities...

Not in a sick way, if your mind went there please remove it from the gutter NOW! Seriously?!

Neways so i wasnt tooo happy with the whole heart hands but its not owned by T.S and heaps of people do it... And its totally cute, and epic and win!!!

And im so totally stealing it to do with my Bird when were in Europe...

Neways thats all just wanted to share cos both these pics, brightened up my day!

Love me

xox

*And i said, Hey ayyy ayyy ayyy... Whats going on?*

OK so im a little bit confused about this picture...
Its from a website called "ugliest tattoos a gallery of regret".
http://ugliesttattoos.com/

The part that confuses me... its not that he has a bad tattoo... When looking at it, it really isnt the worst tattoo job that i have seen. Its not fantastic but you get the idea and you can see who its ment to be, so main requirment is a thumbs up...

The bad part is that this dude... got his OWN face tattooed on his OWN a**....
Now it might just be me??? (but i really hope that isnt the case) But thats all kinds of creepy/Wrong Yes???

Seriously... Dude... What where you thinking? Step away from the Drugs and next time you think its a good idea to get a tattoo wait till your sober???

*Sigh*

*Where are you now, When i need you the most*

HMPHF...

So i think the stress is getting to me now... Had a wee bit of a breakdown last night... was pretty pathetic really... You know when your sooo past all the crap... You have no energy but you have had enought? Well that was me... I was so worn out that my crying was even half assed...
No noise, just tear every now and again... EH!

Got soooo much todo tonight... o joy... in my next life im coming back as a darn cat... i want to sleep all day and be snuggled all the time, get really fat and still not be judged and loved... darn cats... its pretty pathetic when your jealous of a cat!

Im just saying...
XOX

*You dont have to roll the dice, With me your winning...*

RAH.... Hello interweb world... So just a quick update on a few things...

*Found out today you can get pet memberships for my AFL Football team.... *silence, listen to the crickets... cup falling to the floor... coff... silence* <- ANNOYING/AWKWARD! How is it that I a HUMAN has to be on a waiting list for 9 darn years minimum to get a membership (and even then its purly if someone dies... O nice ill be the cow who wishes for someone to die so i can have their membership... Ummm NO!) but my darn cat could have 1 tomorrow if he wanted to? <- NOT COOL!

*Still cant find my Magic Mac-a-licious Macbook charger. Rather annoying. I will have to go through all the boxes tonight... Darn moving house... I will have a decent look tonight before my BF kills me for stealing his power cord all the time :OP Oppps... <3 you babe :)

*Have to update my itunes... I deleted everything to start a new, need to update my iphone, itouch and computers (mac and Mini HP) before i leave on a jet plane... ok so its not a jet plane but i like to sing "leaving on a jet plane, dont know when ill be back again" even thought its a normal plane and i know when i get back... Ahem...

*Started a youtube page, now i just have to figure out how to use it... hoping to make some vid's of our holiday so i can put them online for the family in UK etc...

*19 DAYS TO GO!!!!!!! and even then its really 18 cos we leave early on the 6th. am i excited? NO!!!! .... I am way past excited, giddy, happy, that i dont even know what i am. i am in a numb-ness at the moment i just want to be on the plane so i can say YES it is happening... Finally... after 23 years... YAY!

*My suit case has the essentials packed, i know im organised i just want it to be there. :)

*May have caught a slight case of "The Fever" <- I KNOW RIGHT? but anyone who knows me... knows i love innocents and happiness and dancing like a spanna and well im a big kid. Wish i could get favourite girl out of my head tho... I may have been singing it at work and then i heard a tech whisteling the tune... I cracked up and he said i have no idea what the song is but its stuck in my head... The techs in his mid 50's didnt have the heart to tell him he was whistling the same tune as about a billion teenage girls who are scraming "OMG I LOVE YOU SO MUCH" while crying.... Umm AWKWARD. Seen an intiview and JB was like "i dont understand why they keep crying???" tis true... But im not going to mock... If i ever met Kobe i would probably be worse :P

Aww Kobe... The magic man... i have unlimited amounts of jaw dropping time for him. No not in a sexc time way... (seriously get your mind out of the gutter.....not to say that he.... No joking) But just in a OMG how did you just do that? Seriously does the man have magnets in his hands? i swear he just chucks the ball with no effort and it goes in... Not that i am compalaining it helps sooo much being the Lakers fan that i am :) Im sorry what was that?? Kobe for MVP... AGAIN? you know you can see it right? And im sorry what was that? The finals called and L.A Lakers are gonna win it? Welll DAH!!!! i know that :P

Sorry i may have gotten side tracked with a man who is like a god to me... And in saying that... Stumbeled upon this very "god like" fitting picture... see the pretty-ness....
AND on that note i shall leave you, with all the random-ness i have to share today :) Hope your all having a great day :) Keep smiling, you might just make someones day :)

Much love
-Jazz
xox

*You put the wine in the coconut and you drink it all up*

So... This is a mate of mine called Trick... He is awesome, I met Trick going back ummm wow i think about 8 years ago?

We use to do theatre together :) Neways another one of my mates who still does theatre showed me this video clip he did...

Pretty much a youtube video of his ranting, LET ME EXPLAIN... Trick has a very very quick some what sick sence of humour, he is one of those people that can pull of jokes about almost any NO NO topic and get away with it...

Neways dont take to much offence to the video, he is joking. Neways at the end of the clip at i think the 7 minute mark he does a topic on Women... Check out the collage bottom right... :P Yeah that me.. I feel somewhat loved :) Neways thought i would share cos it made me smile soooo hard :)

Lol the pic on this post is the only one i could find at work :P Its at a mates dress up party hence why i look like a doosh :P Trick on the other hand i think would wear his costume out all the time :P hehe..
Rock N Roll : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0RnSGuQFjLs

Xoxox

*Of all the girls i've ever known... Its you... Its you...*

Howdy partner...

So feeling a little better today :) Not perfect but trying my hardest to stay at "Bubbly" Jasmin and not "Falling apart" Jasmin.
Mum has more scans yesterday and they are still doing testing... The Doc recons it will take about 2 weeks... Which in its self is worrying because we will find out RIGHT before we leave...

I just want mum to get better, i hate seeing her in pain. She sooooo doesnt deserve this... And her work are being dooshes... makes me want to slap them in the face with a giant fish... (im not sure why a giant fish, lets just go with it)...

BUT  i am staying positive, were doing all the right things, tests, resting, looking after her etc... So now we play the waiting game and think posiitve for her :) Silver linings in lfe....

I managed to start the day better than yesterday... For starters i didnt forget my work shoes and i dont have to work in my ugg boots today... Embarassing when i realised i left my work shoes at home yesterday...

Have a pretty full on weekend planned, need to get some more book cases from terry's place, And acturally organise our room, its soooo hard being back at home, not because of mum but just the room, you dont realise how much space it takes up when you dont have your own bathroom so you have all your toileties and computers in a computer room etc...

I Brought the Justin Bieber Australian edition my world Cd last night... The look on my partners face was priceless :P he is now calling me a "teeny bopper" lol o those were the days... Yes i know im 23 yes i know he is like 16? ill make it clear right NOW i am NOT "in love" with JB, But he has good songs...

Lets face it the kid is marketed REALLY REALLY well... Not only do all (i think) his songs relate to most girls... Come on if your a chick reading this... think back to when you were 14 - 16 and tell me any love song or song about a guy loving you, you didnt stop and say "OMG this SOOOOOOO relates to me"... Come on... At that age we were all searching for this amazing innocent love...

Then we grew up and realised that no at that age its not realistic that he will love you "4ever & ever" and that it only gets to a certain point that its cute and innocent...

NEWAYS its innocent, it makes you feel good or it does at least for me... Even if its only 10 mins out of a day that i dont have to think about pain, sickness, death, bills, working etc... then ill take that 10 mins...

So yeah i am one of the millions that have checked out the youtube vids... and ill wear a lable if you want me too :P he seems like a pretty down to earth kid... I think its really precious the relationship with his mum... Mums are sooooo important and yeah they deserve to be loved and told that more than just on mothers day...

Neways... POINT.. Brought the cd... My partner looked at me like i has been taken over by aliens... :P And then i may have progressed to playing the cd while dancing in the kitchen/dinning room while packing my suit case...

I HAS A PLAN!!!! im gonna but the album on my itouch.. Then on the plane on the flight to Uk.... Im gonna wait till Dave & Jane are sleeping and put the earphone in their ear... THEN i can play the JB cd on repeate and brain wash them HEHE....

THAT WAY if they dont know WHO it is.... they will like it... Seriously i think most ppl are anti JB just because he is young and yadda yadda...
NEWAYS that is the plan and it will be funny... and i may try record it :P hehe...

Neways... yeah im feeling better which was the point of this blog... now back to work and listening to my cd... Yes i brought it into work....
Much love, try keep smiling ppl :)
xoxox

"You seem like the type... To love Em and Leave Em...."

*Can you see? What i see, we have been through this Before*

Not feeling to chipper today...

Had a realiseation today that life is sooooooo terribly short... People say live life like there is no tomorrow... Heck i have said it... But i dont always follow throught with the living my dreams part...

Got some scary news last night... News i am trying to keep under control at the moment... My mummzy isnt well... And she hasnt been for some time now... But the docotrs seem to think its worse than we expected...

Will know more by the end of the day... Im trying not to think about it, i dont want to have a break down or anything and i want to stay strong for my mum... Almost crashed on the way to work tho... That will teach me for thinking too hard! But bless my ABS brakes... Still not sure how i didnt crash but im not second guessing it. THANK YOU!!!

I also eneded up at work in my Ugg boots... Opps... Forgot to put on work shoes... But hey lets be thankful i managed to get dressed and didnt show up in my Pj's... I dont quite think pink penguin pajamas say "Professional" ? Ermmmm But neither do Ugg boots. o Darn it...

Neways if neone reads this... Try tell someone you know that you appreciate them today... You might just be the highlight of their day!!!
Xoxox

*Sinking in*

Hey All,

So its finally sinking in... I am acturally going on a holiday. FINALLY! for the first time in my life. I am going to be leaving the land that i love... And seeing some of the most amazing places, people and cultures....

I never thought it would happen, it got cancelled so many times before. But it is going to happen... I am going to go on my first holiday in 26 days.....

My bags are already packed. Im ready. Im soooooo excited i just hope it all goes to plan.
:P

xxxxxxxxx

*Check list for building the house...*

Dummy list of things we would like in or for the house Design...

1). Robes in all rooms with doors.
2). Alfresco area / decking.
3). Make sure Toilet can be accessed via back yard, Saves ppl walking all through the house when you have parties etc.
4). Like the designs with the laundry behind or off from the Kitchen.
5). Closed in Theatre room.
6).

*Another Task list... Really?*

Well seeing as how i have no memory its only fair :P

TO DO:

*Book london accommodation. (Booked)
*Book Lion King stage show in London. (Booked)
*Get tickets for London attractions (Madam tussaudes, tower of london, dungeons, London eye).
*Book tours in Paris.
*Get Euro Disney tickets.
*Eiffle tower & Louve tickets.
*Get Suitcase or Donnas backpack for Europe, (Brought suit case & hand luggage bag).
*Clothing for Europe.
*Book trains when timetables are released. ( EURAIL italy 5 day ticket booked).
*Organise bank card to put accommo money on for london, venice, paris and london. (Done)

*2010, Still Busy*

So the new year has been and gone and here i am 2010 :O)
On the agenda coming up soon are the following things to do and go to ...

EVENTS:
*Catch up with Sammy. (DONE)
*Date Night with Dave. (DONE)
*Claire and Tims Wedding. (DONE)
*Tiana's Birthday. (DONE)
*Girly chocolate, Vampire marathon night. (DONE)
*Blayde's Welcome to the world party. (NOT HAPPENING NOW)
*Jason's Bday. (DONE)
*Family Birthdays. (DONE)
*Anno with my boy. (HOORAY DONE)
*Birthday. (DONE)

TO DO:
*Need to take Ma, more white wool x4. (DONE)
*Need to buy a hat for Europe. (DONE)
*Need to get travel insurance. (DONE)
*Need to buy backpack for Europe. (DONE)
*Need to update laptop.
*Need to update photos.

WANT TO DO:
*Want to read Sookie stackhouse true blood books. (DOING)
*Want to get Bones T.V series. (DOING)
*Look into getting Bike Licence. (AFTER EUROPE)
*Want to go Camping. (AFTER EUROPE)

WILL DO:
*Will only surround myself with HAPPY and positive people.
*Will not let other people drag me down.
*Will do more things that i want to do
*Will say no when i dont want to do something.
*Will have more Girly hang outs.
*Will learn how to Quilt with Sammy.
*Will make "Sisterhood of the travelling quilt" with my girls Jane and Sammy.

*You're gonna miss me when im gone?"

Morbid... I think so...

So as most people would have seen today, Brittney Murphy has passed away.
And in all the media blood sucking for stories... One part came out and acturally touched me.

Who really knows if its true or not but there was talk that Ashton Kutcher posted a tweet about his Ex, along the lines of "The world just lost a little bit of sunshine, See you on the other side Kid"...

And i couldnt help but get goose bumps... I wonder if people in my life would have that much class and i dont think they would.

Its hard to stay friends with an ex, and i think its even harder to rise above all the bad to say something so nice.

I wonder... If i died tomorrow, if one of my ex's would say something along these lines?
Would be so heartfelt? Its funny.

Keeping on good terms has always been one of the main things i hoped for. And me being a nice person isnt really an issue, I know i may f*ck up and do things wrong but i havent been malicious or tried to hurt anyone and most people would agree that i am a caring person.

Life just doesnt make sence to me.
Here today, Gone tomorrow. So simple, so true and so deep yet nothing all in one.

*Lets got Lakers, Lets go*

So as most of you know i have a rather high amount of Fandom love for the amazing Kobe Bryant, (Number 24 for the LA Lakers).

If you dont know who that is then i may have to pat you on the head and ask you where the heck you have been hiding and send you on your way to a mental institution, JOKING.

So apart from his normal everyday awesome-ness, 40 points a game, championships, MVP and so on (I could go on all day ie: about his adorable Girls) He has now decided to add PURE freaking amazing specky shots to his list of talents.

Dont believe me? Check this out :)

http://lakersblog.latimes.com/lakersblog/2009/11/kobe-bryant-scores-over-the-backboard.html

The best part is the walk away, Past the Douche that knocked him, Kobe just strolls past with a look of "Yeah i did" all over his face and isnt a shmuck about it, No petty name calling or in your face yelling.

THE MANS GOT SKILLZ...

That is all :P
Love me

XOXOX

* First of all you DONT know me, And second of all... You dont know me*

So People Suck. They really do.

Today at work someone acturally passed me a knife and said "Here you go, Go slit your wrist", Out of know where. We were in a meeting and he walks in with a tray of muffins and a knife, I didnt say anything at all to him and this is what he says to me.....

Charming. I feel so loved.

Had to fight the urge to tell him to Bend over cos he has a place that the knife is needed for more than my wrists....

But i thought NO i like my job better not ruin the chance of keeping it... But really really wanted to... He then proceeded to ask me for a favour. HA... When Pigs fly dude!

Neways thats been my day so far.
Just thought id share.
Love me
xoxox

*Baby love, My baby love.. lalala*

<--- 1, 2 , 3 Nawww...

KYLIE, JASON AND BLAYDE:

So things are going well at the moment for the family and my ridiculously cute God son! Or should i say Our (my partner David and I) God son.

So Jason and Kylie asked David if he would a god Parent to little Blayde Ian Grant.

I think he was so shocked. Its so sweet that they asked him. They both said that he is such an amazing guy (Duh i know guys :P hehe) and that they can really see David and i being together in the long run. (God i hope they are right, Happen to love him just a little... Ok as big as a house).

So not only am i the god mother to one of my oldest and dearest mates, My partner gets to be involved also.

And with a typical David responce his first thought was " Yes an excuse to buy "Him" a mini lap top" <- ERGO an excuse so Dave can have and play with a mini laptop :P

Blaydes going really well at the moment, part of me wants to scream it from the roof of anywhere i can access but the other part wants to keep positive and silent until our little man is out of the incubator and home safe with mum aka Fred bear and Dad aka Jace ( I know not half as cool nick name as fred bear but what are you gonna do).

Blaydes feeding well, gained weight :) and is breathing on his own, Mum finally got to hold him for the very first time. Poor little tiny baby.

He is so precious bless his little cotton socks. <-- i know i must sound clucky. Im not ! trust me! if you knew me you would know im not. i LOVE other peoples kids, Because i love being able to give them back :P hehe. Full of sugar, Hyped up with loud toys. (My friends are gonna hate me).

But its just really precious to me that so many of my friends are looking at or have opened that chapter of their lives. And they are so cute. I cant wait for some of my other friends to have kids. And dress them up (and make them love WCE footy team ... I mean What???).

Neways that a little dribble from me :)

Love me

XoXo

*When my time comes, Keep me in your memory... Leave out all the rest*

I dont understand life sometimes... Alot of the time...
Im feeling a little numb at the moment.

On Monday night 19th / Tuesday Morning 20th Melanie left...
I dont know what im feeling, which is really annoying. And to top it off its really arkward and sad.

Mum's first partner / Love of her life was Lenny. Lenny had a sister names Anita. Mum and Anita were good friends.

Mum and Lenny broke up and later mum met my Dad. Mum and Anita were still friends and fell pregnant at the same time.

Mum with Me, Anita with Melanie. We are the same age. Our mums grew up together and i for some part grew up with Melanie.

Mum and Dad split up, Dad and Anita dated later on in life (DRAMA i know)... Dad lived with Anita and Melanie and i stayed with them on the holidays..

Melanie left the other night, we dont know if it was her choice yet... But it looks that way.
Im sad for her being gone. But i am more sad for My mum and her mum.

A Parent should never have to watch their child leave... So i feel so much for Anita.
But i feel so much for my mum, not only does she love Anita and Melanie, She is over come with fear of what if it was Me...

What if she lost me and then there is the guilt for thinking that way.
I havent really accepted it yet. I know that i am numb.

I pray that Melanie just drifted in her sleep, I hope she had a great day and her last thoughts were happy, loved and safe.

I would give so much for it to be that way because i wouldnt want anyone to leave, Alone, sad and upset.

Time will tell.
I just dont understand all he spanners that are thrown into the works latly......
*Shrugs*

XOXO

*And as i walk away, I remember hearing you say "Yeah you'll be back" But i didnt come back DID I*

Im feeling a bit better than what i was yesterday and the day before.

Acturally spoke with mum last night which was good. Im still really worried about her but i dont want to rock the boat just now. I just hope she is really ok.

Have decided not to think about my friends at the moment. As cold as that sounds... I think its about time they did the running around for a change.

Im really hurt. I cant change that and i dont think i will forget this.
The worst possible thing was thrown in my face yesterday and apart of me finally gave up and let go.

I care, and because i do its so easy to throw it in my face and walk away as if nothing happened. It was pretty much the worst thing they could have said and althought time heals all wounds i wont quickly forget that.

Spoke with Sammy, Jane and Donna (Omg i would be so lost without those girls) and also my beautiful boy Dave, and they really calmed me down. All i needed was a sanity check. I needed someone to listen to me so i could get it off my chest. And after 10 mins i felt great.

I was going to cancel my plans for Friday night. Because as much as it hurts i know that everyone will cancel. The sad part is that i acturally have to have an "Event" for my friends to get together and catch up.

The only reason i organised it was because i wanted to see my friends, and its like it doesnt matter to them which sucks. But the point it i was going to cancel, But then i realised if i cancelled it... I would be just as bad as those who cancelled on me....

Why should i cancel on my amazing girls who said yes and have stuck to their decision!
Thats not fair of me to do that.

So i am still going to have it on friday and i am going to have a good time with my friends, Im so glad that Dave, Sam, Jane and Donna spoke to me because i see it all so clear now.

Im hurt. But there is no point inflicting that on the ones who are there for me.
Im trying to get happy again.

I decided to cancel things this week, so that come next week i can start over.
So this week i am doing all the little things i need to get done.

*Finished my passport last night (Getting photo and Person to sign it on Monday).
*cleaned my room.
*Did the washine.
*Straightened the Lounge room.

Come next week i am going to get back into my routine, Work, Gym and holiday planning.
And i am going to say NO! no to all the things that dont matter. I need to! I think as long as i am always saying yes to my friends and events that gives them more reasons to cancel on me all the time.

So maybe i say no so that they might acturally see or catch up with me.
I have far to much on my mind anyways. (Not that they know it).

In someways writting is more a friend to me, it listens thats all i need... Heck if my journal could write back "its going to be ok" i think i would be set. Thats all i need is a bit of support.

Maybe thats to much? I dont know???
I dont see it as to much but maybe thats because i am the "Listener Role" i listen, People vent at me and i am suppose to listen but when its reveresed its not the same way...
I need it to be a 2 way street.

Thanks for listening :)
XOXO

*The best part of Believe is the Lie*

So the last 24 hours has been crap.

I have been on this rollercoaster and i am so sick of finally getting to the top when it takes so long only to be pushed back down to the ground.

I cant believe the crap people do to me.
Why am i a door mat to so many people. Just because i care that means they can treat me like crap?

Im finding it really hard to bother with forgivness, I think its time i cut the cord with many people. Im so sick of being the only person fighting for a "Friendship" when it is one sided.

Its not like i havent given people chances. But they just dont seem to care what they do to me.
Its ok to hurt me (Apparantly) but when i dont go running to their sides "there is something wrong with me" ...

No im just sick of being you punching bag. And OMG if i hear them say "If you need me, you know i am always here for you" one more time i might explode.. DONT say that when your NOT...

What ever your excuse is dont say you will do or be something if you know you wont be! SIMPLE, honest.... Less painful

The funny thing is those who have hurt me will simply just ignore me till they think i am forgotten....

*Let me out?*

So my little God son has decided he wants out of the belly and into the world.
Kylie started having contractions last night...

KYLIE: "Jason, if i didnt know any better i would swear im having contractions. I know i have never been pregnant but this must be a contraction".

JASON: "Dont be silly, you cant be having contractions your only 6 months".

KYLIE: "NO definatly contractions, Hospital now"

SO she is in hospital now and little Fred bear Jr isnt waiting. Looks like he will definatly be here int he next couple of days max.

Shes has needles to help the baby breath and heartbeat is going strong. He is kicking with a full WCE level thump.

Going back to the hospital tonight, Need to find Tiny jumpsuits. 3 months early.
I havent even thrown the baby shower yet!!!

OMG!!!!!!!

*And in my dreams i always so Yes*

So here is the latest WTF dream...

Myself and 4 people (i dont know who they are but we are talking as if we are friends) we are walking back home.

Get home and its at a football oval canteen. We open the roller door that connects to the bench top, climb over the bench to get into the kitchen, then climb over the other bench on the other wall to get into the "House".

There stands Tracy (my ex's Phycho mum who is addicted to pills).
There is my little sister (i dont have a little sister but i know in the dream this girl is my sister).

There is a challange.

The other 4 people im with sit in the chairs and i am hanging on to the beam in the roof,
i manage to pull myself up so im leaning over the beam with my arms over one side of the beam and body on the other side.

The challange is for the 4 people in the chairs to race to the other side of the room and back. Only they cannot leave there chair and they cannot let the chair be taken off the floor. They have to race and get back and someone has to take over fro me when i cant hang on any longer.

We can swap people as many times as we like.

I dont know why we are racing, and there isnt another team to beat?????
we race...

At the end of the race. Tracy (Phycho pill mum) shoots herself ? and then my little sister says congratulations you all graduate?

I HAVE NO FREAKING IDEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This makes no sence.....That is all!

*Cut my umm head into pieces?*

Migrain.. I hate you.

Had such a crap day with you yesterday yet today you still linger... Dont you know when to leave...

i want to cut my head off :(
*cries*

*still wont ever understand why you hang around, I see whats going down, cover up with make up in the mirror*

So here's the 411 on things that have been happening or are happening at the moment.

1). Seems to be birthday month. Sending my love to All the Aug/Sept babies out there... (Steph, Emma, Dan, Erica, Sky) just to name a few..

2). Parties = Had birthday in the city for Davids mum, Bra party for Casey, Fairy party for sky and House of Horror this weekend really wanted to go as Beetle Juice but that didnt happen :(. Have a Jamacian Party the following weekend and Uncle Al's 60th also.

3). Found out my god child is going to be an amazing little boy. I have been in COO COO mode latley I am NOT clucky but i am enjoying shopping around for Kylie and little Tadpole/peanut/alien child.
I have found a bottle steraliser and a little bouncing chair and MOST importantly a west coast eagles jump suit :)

4). Have been very depressed that my Idol and God like man that i looked up to has retired. And he retired because he has just had a son and he want to be a good dad. Nawww makes me love and respect Davip Wirrpanda so much more.

5). David and I got our new camera Nikon D5000 :P its really fancy. Now im going to get booked in to do a training course and learn how to be fancy for our holiday.

6). Three of my mates are getting baptised on Sunday. I think its really sweet that they are all doing it together. Very good for them :) SO i am going to go watch :) Might take pictures at the after reception at the beach.

7). GYM... o that evil but o so awesome place. I have been going to get into gear for our europe trip next year. So far i have been going for about 2 months. maybe 2.5 months? Anyways i had a weigh in on the weekend.

......

And i have lost 15 kg so far... SO i am pretty happy with myself. Only thing is i cant really seen it. The only time i really notice it is when i put on my bridesmaid dresses.

I was lucky enought to be bridesmaid twice this year (so amazing) and now my dresses are both to big for me. The one that was really tight is loose and i can pull it tighter so thats a great thing...

Im just hoping i an maintain the constant loss so that come June next year i should be fairly fit. I know i will be able to handle the hiking but i would love to look back at the pics and not stress about those curves etc...

Well i better be off :)
Much love as always
Love me
xxxxx

*Memishmer*

Im over feeling like crap...

*From tad pole 2 peanut 2 baby*

Meet my friend and her little peanut.

In that tummy my god child grows...

THATS SO EXCITING....

One more day and i know if i will have a god daughter or a god son :)

Blessed!
xxxx

*Alive only just*

So i know i have been all kinds of MIA over the last say month but in my defence if people stopped having events i would be a lot free-er.

so here is a quick update.

1).
Been going to the gym to get fitter for Euro Touro in 2010. Have been 9 days in a row so today i am rather sore but i think thats the aim? No pain no gain? went to the docotors and got checked up and they told me i have a condition (God knows what its called as all medical names are long winded and stupid i think it was something like metosmorphic? i donno) ANYWAYS what it is, i carrie alot of fluid.
Therefore, the best way to describe it is this. Say you and I are both a chocolate easter bunny we are the exact same bunny. we look the same size. However i would be solid chocolate therefore weighing more and you would be hollow weighing less than i but wearing the same size umm Wrapper? LOL

THEREFORE, i have been measureing myself as well as weighing as i might now show a loss on the scales but will in my clothing size. STUPID right? yeah so anyways its been fun. I am in a good routine atm.

2).
My Friends showing so much at the moment She is Pregnant and is over 3 months preggers. She finds out in 8 days what the sex of my god child is.

YES thats right Kylie and Jason asked me to be God Mother to little FBjr. (fred bear Jr inside joke). I am gonna be a god mother.

I may have cried a little just a smidge and Kylie who cries over anything at the moment got set off also she was trying to pass me napkins (we were at the dome) but they were covered in food so gave me her sleeve haha.

I cant wait to know what the little peanut is. Kylie is a really skinny girl so its really notiable to see how much she is showing at the moment people are thinking its twins but i dont think so i just think because Kylie is so tiny it looks bigger but there isnt as much room as normal people might have.

SO exciting stuff anyways.

well i best travel im not procrastinating at the moment *shifts eyes from side to side*.
Ill be back soon promise :)

love me
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

*OUCH*

Not having a great day i has a really bad tummy ache. Darn body i hate you!!!
back to wollowing in self pity

-xoxo

*Friends make the world go round*

So i have been taking the time to catch up with my mates one on one latley seeing as how i had been so busy and had lost contact with so many people over the last year.

I have caught up with Celeste and as much as i hate to admit it i think all bridges have been burnt. I still love her to bits and want her to have the best life but i feel when ever we makes plans it never works out and then more time passes and we drif further and further apart.

I caught up with Bella and Jason. And just as i expected it wasnt a good catch up. Im not sure whats happening with Bella. She was the one friend i could truly say we can spend a year apart and then fall back into "US" and everything was the same. It use to always be like this.
Now it seems to much has happened ????

Im not sure what it is but for some reason she always seems to compelete with me, no sorry thats not the right wording. She just competes in general and i feel like i am being judged or that i am not good enought to fit into her life anymore? i dont know it just feels so different now? I hate it. I want to change it but i dont know how?

Maybe its me? maybe i want more out  of the friendship? Who knows its just awkward and i NEVER thought i would say that.

I also caught up with Kylie, which was awesome. I think we will always be mates. Granted we dont see or talk every week but we have known eachother out whole lives and been through so much.
And right now she is pregnant and there is a little baby in there that i get to spoil and just like i taught "Its" mother, I can teach the child how to ride a bike also :)

I Caught up with Princess D who has a lot goin on right now. I really love princess D but there is so much i cant share or talk about with her. Sometimes i dont understand it but other times i do. Its hard to always watch what you say or how you act or what you do and 9 times out of 10 i just dont quiet fit in.

I caught up with Donnamah. Gosh i love that girl. She is just awesome. Nothing is fake and its always straight forward and honest. and i really admire that in her. I love that she doesnt act likes a tool or contridict herself all the time.

Been seeing a lot of Sammy latley omg i love Sam so much she is just so gawgus and kind and i love her to bits. I think the reason we get a long so well is because i can see alot of things i do in her.
Like caring for mates and always going above for people and the way she is with her mates is like how i am with mine. Mind you i have backed off this year and its been really interesting.
I have had a few attemps to see my mates but for once not be me who is running around, or the driver or the payer and its been really interesting to see.

I have to take my hat off and be so greatful that i have wonderful people in my life. Latly i have been so looked after. i have been goign through a rough time and Jane has been so amazing that girl suprises me all the time.
She hasnt let me hide away alone or skip events because she knows where i am at.

Im a bit upset with other people because they keep cancelling plans. Even if its small things like waiting for them to come over and then just not showing up. Yeah cos i have nothing better to do that hang around all day waiting.

I guess this sounds really negative but the truth is it isnt. iam acturally really happy at the moment. And i am so over taking the scrap or the blackmail or the guilt for things that are not in my control or are not my fault.

Im happy im working my butt off at the gym so im fitter for euro touro and thats all im focusing on at the moment :O)

That is all
xoxo
Love me.